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permutativebrief commentary on this place that only we know and stand on the path you take !! writing has been kind of ummm well rough lately and i feel like it reflected in these fics but it's fine. <3
lol i mean the circumstances surrounding the creation of this fic are extremely questionable (when crys’s unhinged [redacted] brainrot gets to you, you write 4k of ooc pwp, you realize it fits tyunning dynamics and tailor it to suit mira’s unhinged brainrot instead). i’m actually fine with this fic mostly?
> i feel like it’s sort of rushed / i could have spent more time editing it, but at the same time it’s really difficult for me to overcome my natural shyness (?) when it comes to these things. like the entire first draft of this fic was written in this nearly-invisible grey font because i didn’t want to read what i was writing
> uhhhhh maybe it’s just me but writing sex (and TENDERNESS) especially feels so personal. like i know it’s not actually like this but i feel like i just cut out a bit of my heart and offered it up on a platter. and i don’t even care that much about tyunning as a pairing, which is the only reason why i was able to finish the fic in the first place?!?! god knows what would’ve happened if i tried to write taegyu explicit fic [stares at my abandoned drafts of various such taegyu fics]
> i feel like coming up with nsfw dynamics is so difficult. + EMBARRASSING (to me). like i need to get over myself… it was so much easier to write this because it was very much My_Friend’s_Vision_Of_What’s_Going_On
> i feel like some of the prose is sort of repetitive and rushed but really it’s nothing compared to the fic below so ummmmm. whatever we’re ok in the end
> thinking about how when i posted it on anon, mira & juliet immediately knew it was me — BUT would they have known it was me if 1) i didn’t tailor the wordcount to 4000w 2) gratuitously mentioned LEEHEESEUNG for no reason!? well who knows.
> got a random cc about why i wrote about tyunning if they’re so young…………….. when you’re younger than tyunning……………… anyways i think the situation is a lot less fraught than if i had done what i had initially planned to do so i’m pretty happy. when i managed to post a pwp unscathed mostly!
ummm okay. so first of all this was written for abi’s birthday, specifically to address the following prompts/tropes that she likes: exes to lovers; drunk confessions. or even better: sober confessions but the other thinks you're drunk; characters who smell good; looking at someone with so much regret it suffocates you (?!); “in a world full of temporary things you are a perpetual feeling”
idk. it was definitely not something i’d write on my own and i really enjoyed the challenge of writing something out of my comfort zone. at the same time i have weird conflicted feelings about exes to lovers as a trope? like i feel like the fic i just posted is almost… a fantasy of what a 17 year old would think would happen if they met their s/o 2 yrs in the future after a period of separation. it’s not the reality—in reality, humans move on faster than that (i think). and i guess all fic is a fantasy to an extent, but i guess what i’m saying is—i don’t know how much i believe in Great Big Loves, loves that transcend gaps of two years, especially when the characters are in their late teens/early twenties.
but at the same time i do think there’s something nice in being able to approach a relationship from a new mindset now that they’ve taken some time to grow separately as people!? idk… i guess what i’m saying is, i’m not 100% sure if what i conveyed feels super accurate to me. but at the same time, i had fun with how dramatic it was LOL. it’s just that usually when i write i like being more understated/realistic and convey some sense of my own understanding of human relationships, and i feel like that was slightly lacking there.
oh, also i wrote the fic so freaking quickly (like in 300w/15min word sprints, and then another ~1.5 hrs editing?) LOL… when the deadline gets to you.
++ just remembered this but the cutest lump in the world line was stolen from TORI SOOBUN LUVITYMOA'S COMMENT ON HEART SHAKER T___T i love yangjunwon and his puffy coat
this place that only we know
lol i mean the circumstances surrounding the creation of this fic are extremely questionable (when crys’s unhinged [redacted] brainrot gets to you, you write 4k of ooc pwp, you realize it fits tyunning dynamics and tailor it to suit mira’s unhinged brainrot instead). i’m actually fine with this fic mostly?
> i feel like it’s sort of rushed / i could have spent more time editing it, but at the same time it’s really difficult for me to overcome my natural shyness (?) when it comes to these things. like the entire first draft of this fic was written in this nearly-invisible grey font because i didn’t want to read what i was writing
> uhhhhh maybe it’s just me but writing sex (and TENDERNESS) especially feels so personal. like i know it’s not actually like this but i feel like i just cut out a bit of my heart and offered it up on a platter. and i don’t even care that much about tyunning as a pairing, which is the only reason why i was able to finish the fic in the first place?!?! god knows what would’ve happened if i tried to write taegyu explicit fic [stares at my abandoned drafts of various such taegyu fics]
> i feel like coming up with nsfw dynamics is so difficult. + EMBARRASSING (to me). like i need to get over myself… it was so much easier to write this because it was very much My_Friend’s_Vision_Of_What’s_Going_On
> i feel like some of the prose is sort of repetitive and rushed but really it’s nothing compared to the fic below so ummmmm. whatever we’re ok in the end
> thinking about how when i posted it on anon, mira & juliet immediately knew it was me — BUT would they have known it was me if 1) i didn’t tailor the wordcount to 4000w 2) gratuitously mentioned LEEHEESEUNG for no reason!? well who knows.
> got a random cc about why i wrote about tyunning if they’re so young…………….. when you’re younger than tyunning……………… anyways i think the situation is a lot less fraught than if i had done what i had initially planned to do so i’m pretty happy. when i managed to post a pwp unscathed mostly!
stand on the path you take
ummm okay. so first of all this was written for abi’s birthday, specifically to address the following prompts/tropes that she likes: exes to lovers; drunk confessions. or even better: sober confessions but the other thinks you're drunk; characters who smell good; looking at someone with so much regret it suffocates you (?!); “in a world full of temporary things you are a perpetual feeling”
idk. it was definitely not something i’d write on my own and i really enjoyed the challenge of writing something out of my comfort zone. at the same time i have weird conflicted feelings about exes to lovers as a trope? like i feel like the fic i just posted is almost… a fantasy of what a 17 year old would think would happen if they met their s/o 2 yrs in the future after a period of separation. it’s not the reality—in reality, humans move on faster than that (i think). and i guess all fic is a fantasy to an extent, but i guess what i’m saying is—i don’t know how much i believe in Great Big Loves, loves that transcend gaps of two years, especially when the characters are in their late teens/early twenties.
but at the same time i do think there’s something nice in being able to approach a relationship from a new mindset now that they’ve taken some time to grow separately as people!? idk… i guess what i’m saying is, i’m not 100% sure if what i conveyed feels super accurate to me. but at the same time, i had fun with how dramatic it was LOL. it’s just that usually when i write i like being more understated/realistic and convey some sense of my own understanding of human relationships, and i feel like that was slightly lacking there.
oh, also i wrote the fic so freaking quickly (like in 300w/15min word sprints, and then another ~1.5 hrs editing?) LOL… when the deadline gets to you.
++ just remembered this but the cutest lump in the world line was stolen from TORI SOOBUN LUVITYMOA'S COMMENT ON HEART SHAKER T___T i love yangjunwon and his puffy coat
manifestation works ^^
Date: 2021-04-21 02:54 am (UTC)honestly impressed by my ability to TYUNNING BRAINWASH my entire tl through sheer force of will and annoying tweets ^^ anything is possible if u Believe ,
anyways [spiel about how im obsessed w you] , 4ever in ur debt for ponyifying cj for me ^♡^
Re: manifestation works ^^
Date: 2021-04-21 01:56 pm (UTC)